hotel rooms should be bigger. It’s calming, to be in the midst of chaos in an average Holiday Inn suite with nearly ten girls huddled inside, laughing and talking and just living. Jenny is in the corner wowing siani and angie and jenni with her card tricks and belen and inakshmi wrestle while sheila does hair and izzy looks on. the room is loud and filled with laughter and conversation, the green walls and dark furniture form a little bubble of the universe and it feels like we’re the only ones in the world. it might be enough. bags litter the floor; shoes are haphazardly tossed off, we sprawl over the chairs and bed pillows and striped carpet. this is comfort and feels like home as the tv runs in the background with no one paying attention. i’m happy. i have no reason to be, particularly, but there it is. there is so much going on, and yet, we are one. i soak in the company, the camaraderie, and i feel like i can breathe.